Saturday, January 25, 2014

The Bullet List by Nikki Roman BOOK REVIEW!!!

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Title: The Bullet List

Author: Nikki Roman

Published: Self Published

What would you do if every time you stepped foot into your school you were tormented even beaten within an inch or your life and there is nothing you can do about it? To make it worse you aren't even safe at home from frequent beatings. That is just a small glimpse into the horrible life of Bailey Skyes.
Bailey doesn't know when her school tormentor Miemah started to hate her she only knows that she can't go a day without some form of verbal or physical abuse. Maybe they are jealous because she is skinny and has boys chasing her, or maybe it goes a bit deeper. Bailey tries to seek help from the teachers and office staff but is blamed for bullying Miemah and quickly dismissed. To top if all off Bailey's teachers blow her off as a loser with a bad attitude. When they school day becomes to much Bailey escapes to a janitor's closet that has a cot in it where she sleeps away the day. Sleep seems to be the only thing that brings any relaxation to Bailey but even that is tormented when she has nightmares about the night her father killed a man while she watched. He had to kill Jack you see because he had a knife and threatened Bailey and her father. He did it for his daughter and her protection when Jack attacked them. That was about the time when Bailey's life changed. With her father in prison for murder Bailey can see her mom slowly slipping into depression which her mother then tries to self medicate with booze and drugs. Her mother at times becomes so drunk and drugged that she can't even remember beating Bailey to a pulp until the next day when she sees the evidence.
After years of abuse at home and at school Bailey finds it hard to forgive her mother even if she stops drinking and doing drugs. The only joy Bailey has in her life is when she is with her friend Clad. Bailey's relationship with Clad begins to take a turn when Clad begins to get strong feelings for her but she can't get past the fact that she only views him as a brother type. Even though Bailey finds Clad to be a great comfort and she can't imagine life without him she doesn't want it to be anything more than a really good friendship leaving Clad in the friend zone. Mean while the constant beatings continue and Bailey sees no way to escape the abuse unless the wrong doers are dead, and Bailey knows exactly how to do it. Shoot them, shoot them all and watch the pain go away seems like the only option, kill them before they kill her. In a fit of rage Bailey seals the deal by making a bullet list and with her mother's gun in hand she will walk into the school and kill them all as they walk from their classes....or does she?


Thoughts: When I first started reading this book I didn't think I was going to like it because it just didn't sound like something I would read. After a few chapters though I found myself hooked on the story and really wanted to find out what happens next. My only problem with this book was that I didn't really like the main character and there were some errors in the writing that I looked past because even the best of us make typing mistakes. All in all though I was very happy with how the story ended and for a first book Nikki did a great job!

Quotes: " for every splinter of lost hope, there is a sea full of dreams, and for every dreary day there is a sun to light the sky and chase away the despair."

" Sometimes I would rather believe in my own lies than believe in all your truth, because I don't think I could stand the idea of you not loving me the same way I love you."

Songs that remind me of the story:

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Saturday, January 18, 2014

Randomly Random Blog and WTF A Dead Guy!

A new D&D group has been formed! I was informed today that I am able to join the new D&D group! I also have my own dice on the way that Sheldon got for me! Time for a happy dance!

My ankle is getting better it isn't as sore as it was there is still some swelling though but nothing major. Sheldon was like "more people are asking about your ankle than they did when I broke my toe." Like I knew that people were going to care about a sprained ankle I didn't post the picture on Facebook for attention I just wanted to show everyone the swelling in my foot because it looked like a mutant foot it was so big. Normally I slip under the radar as far as people noticing anything about me so I was shocked myself at all the ankle feed back. 
I have just been sitting around most of the day looking at books and author's online. I keep looking at the new Harry Potter box set because I want one so badly but I don't have the cash for it right now so I will have to wait. I love the new covers for all the books in the series though, shockingly enough I think they are better than the original covers. I have this thought that eventually might come to play, I am thinking about reading at least one book from every popular author that is in a genre I like. Almost all genres are good except crime and mystery which I am not to keen on. I have been thinking about this for a while because there are so many people that I haven't actually read a book from that almost everyone else has like Ernest Hemingway. I wanted to read a book by him in high school but one of my teachers made it seem like it was a crime to even consider it because he was a that matters. If I didn't read books based off of when the author did during their life then there are a lot of books I wouldn't have read. lets just name a few people that had/have troubled lives. 
Edger Allan Poe - Drunk
Ernest Hemingway - Drunk
Sylvia Plath - Committed suicide
F Scott Fitzgerald  - Drunk 
Nathaniel Hawthorne - Grandfather was one of the judges responsible for killing falsely accused people during the Salem witch trials. 
Stephen King - Admitted to using Drugs 
William Faulkner - Drank while writing 
Virginia Woolf - Committed suicide
The list can go on and on with famous people who have done some things that most would frown upon. So I figured eventually I will start to do what I have always wanted to do. 
Now before I go I would like to tell you something I read in the news today from my area. A missing man's body was found in a car outside of the Mcdonlads I used to work at. He was found in a parked car and though they don't know for sure how long he had been there I expect it was a while since people are so observant these days. 

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Friday, January 17, 2014

Mary Jane by Judith O'Brien BOOK REVIEW!!!

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Title: Mary Jane

Author: Judith O'Brien

Published: Marvel Entertainment Group, Inc.

We know almost everything there is to know about Spiderman but we hardly know anything about the woman he loves... This book is about Mary Jane and is told from her point of view. Mary Jane or MJ as she is known by her friends is a very complex character and in the prologue alone you get a good taste of the family drama that makes MJ the woman she grows up to be.

The book starts off when MJ was nine and lets you take a look at her mother and father before they split up. Though MJ was only 9 she was well aware of the fighting and her father's drinking. In fact MJ is quite good at faking happiness when she is in public or at school so no one knows about her home life. MJ lost herself in her dance classes and school work. she doesn't even mind when she gets paired up with Peter Parker for her science fair project. MJ likes Peter and even though he isn't popular and at the time was only known for being a nerd MJ has always found she had a closer bond with Peter than she did with her other friends. MJ and Peter end up making a robot for their project and it probably would have won the science fair if MJ's dad wouldn't have shown up drunk and broke their display and project. That was the moment when everyone including Peter got to witness what MJ's home life is like.
Fast fording to now. MJ's parents have split up. Her mother loses the house in the split and MJ loses her nice dance school and private school. MJ has to transfer to a public school after her and her mother move into a tiny apartment and begin a new life in poverty. The only thing good about the new public school is the fact that she knows Peter also goes to the same public school. You see Peter's Uncle Ben and Aunt May moved into Peter's parent's house after their death to take care of Peter. Because of that Peter was put in Public school long ago and has pretty much accepted it and is taking it a lot better than MJ. The two ended up finding each other and even they even get paired up to work on another project for science class. To get some ideas for the science projects the teacher decides to take the class on a field trip to Oz corp. The class doesn't stay long thought because Peter ends up getting bit by a rare breed of spider that was being tested at the lab.
It seems like just a normal spider bite so no one thinks anything of it until the next few days when Peter seems to be different and strange things surrounding Peter begin to happen. There is also a vigilante super hero by the name of Spiderman running around town fighting crime. MJ even gets lucky enough to be rescued by him and now she can't get the fact that he looks like someone she knows out of her head.


Thoughts: I loved every bit of this book! It was very well written and could be read quickly and gives you a closer look at one of Marvel's most popular female character.

Happy Birthday 2 Me With A Twisted Ankle!

I am now 27! To celebrate my birthday I thought I would give myself a gift...something that wouldn't be forgotten for a a twisted ankle. That's right I being the clutsy self tried to walk on a foot that had fallen to sleep from me sitting on it. About three steps into the walk my foot decided he hated me and I rolled my ankle which then made a loud popping noise making me fall to the floor while doing my best Peter Griffin impression from Family Guy.
 One of my cats had the joy of witnessing the whole thing and probably laughing to himself before coming over to put his paw on my knee.
Aside from falling on my ass my birthday was good I had a small cake and we went to see the 2nd part of The Hobbit which ending up being a lot better than the first installment. We also had frozen pizza for dinner which was yummy! I got lots of birthday wishes on Facebook from friends and  I still enjoyed my day sprained ankle and all ( I bet I will be hobbling around even worse later on today because it has already started to swell).

What has been going on so recently is something that only people that are close to me would know but I thought I would share it with you guys today. It came to my attention recently that Sheldon's friends decided to make a D&D group and starting every Tuesday the group would get together and play. Well Sheldon made me think that I was welcome to the group because the more people there are the funner the game right? Well I have always had a feeling that his friends don't like hanging out with me as much as Sheldon claimed but I figured it was just me being negative and I should give it a chance because I actually did want to play D&D. So on the Tuesday that was going to be the start of the group I spent all day making a Druid character and even made some dice bags out of yarn ( I have a bit of crochet skills). I also had been looking into getting my own dice and put a notebook together for Sheldon and my character complete with sheet protectors so they wouldn't get messed up. It was almost time for us to leave to go to the group when Sheldon texted the head of the group to let him know that "We" would be on our way. The head texted back "who is we?" and Sheldon said "Callie and I". That is when the head texted back "I don't mean to be rude or anything but I wanted it to just be the guys". Even though I tried to hold it together I just crumpled as my negative feelings came true. I had been holding together so well through the holidays even with the drama with my father but when Sheldon got that text message it ruined everything and caused all my depression over the crap that had happened hit me all at once. I have been more depressed lately as a result of the D&D bullshit and I am pretty sure the weather is also a bit of a reason since I can't really go outside and walk because it is WAY to cold for that. I can see myself slowly becoming a very sad and lonely hermit person and I hope Sheldon comes through with making our own D&D group that anyone can join because I need it.
To keep from being bored I have taken up cleaning and rearranging things. I got tired of not having space on my book shelves and Sheldon also needed room for his books so I went on a bookshelf rampage and moved things around and now books are neatly place in spots instead of just stacked everywhere like they were before. I didn't stop there either I also cleaned out two drawers in the file cabinet that we have and I also cleaned the desk really good so now the clutter is knocked down majorly! I give the desk a week at the most before it is all dusty and messy again, the dust,dishes,and laundry is a never ending battle.

Below are some pictures of the bookshelves and other places in which books are placed.

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